SO I have been thinking about opening a blog where I post as I would write in a diary. I have tried having a diary several times during the past 10 years, but I am not big on continuity... just terrible at it to be honest.
But this time I will try to be more continuous about the blog. To start off, I will introduce myself. My name is Kiki and I am currently 21 years old. I have been in a serious relationship with the most adorable man I have ever met in the past 2 years, and he is the reason I turned back to writing... because he moved away again.
We have started out as a long distance couple in 2016, because he was playing for a Swiss team in Davos, and we lived like that for 1 year, but then he moved home to Hungary and we were no longer in long distance. And I kind of grew used to having him around. It was comfortable, and I think I forgot to appreciate the time we had. A couple weeks ago, he got a contract for another Swiss hockey team in La Chaux-de-Fonds. Now he is 1000kms away and I can no longer spend time with him on the daily basis... it kind of taken its toll on me, to be entirely honest with you.
On the day he left I worked and on my way home, it started pouring and I couldn't decide if the skies were mourning with me or pissing on my already bad day. Then and there in the bus stop for bus 91, I decided to write the blog, and also make minor changes to my life.
For one, I will be trying to squeeze in 1 run every week, yoga every morning and evening, and training once a week. I need to be more active because in the past 1 and a half years I have gained over 35 pounds (about 15-16kgs) and I need to change that. Especially because I do not feel good in my skin anymore. I have never been skinny, but I looked alright. Now, I feel ashamed to put on a bikini.
Second, I will save up money. I have to go visit my boyfriend from something. And I also want to travel around Europe on the weeks when I won't have college from September.
By the way, college. I used to be a Biology major for a half year and I left it. I left it, because it made me feel awful and simply I did not want to study in that field. I want to be and english major, so I reapplied in February and I will get the news if I was accepted or no in August. I will be so happy if they accept my application. I have given Biology a chance, like my father wanted - not really, he wanted me to be in medicine, but I was just not up for that (for several reasons) - but I got to go on a path that I chose for myself, because I want to be happy. I want to love my job, and I want to be a good influence for my kids in the future. Like a positive person, who won't pressure them to go on fields they are not interested in. There are only so many doctors the world needs, and I want to be the parent that tells her kids that they can be anything they like, because nobody HAS TO BE a doctor, lawyer, judge, architect etc.
Right now I work as a barista, making pretty flowers in the micro-foam. It pays alright, but if I was living in a rented apartment I would probably starve to death. So now that I have introduced myself, it is time to change clothes, and go for the run I have talked about above. See you in the next entry.
But this time I will try to be more continuous about the blog. To start off, I will introduce myself. My name is Kiki and I am currently 21 years old. I have been in a serious relationship with the most adorable man I have ever met in the past 2 years, and he is the reason I turned back to writing... because he moved away again.
We have started out as a long distance couple in 2016, because he was playing for a Swiss team in Davos, and we lived like that for 1 year, but then he moved home to Hungary and we were no longer in long distance. And I kind of grew used to having him around. It was comfortable, and I think I forgot to appreciate the time we had. A couple weeks ago, he got a contract for another Swiss hockey team in La Chaux-de-Fonds. Now he is 1000kms away and I can no longer spend time with him on the daily basis... it kind of taken its toll on me, to be entirely honest with you.
On the day he left I worked and on my way home, it started pouring and I couldn't decide if the skies were mourning with me or pissing on my already bad day. Then and there in the bus stop for bus 91, I decided to write the blog, and also make minor changes to my life.
For one, I will be trying to squeeze in 1 run every week, yoga every morning and evening, and training once a week. I need to be more active because in the past 1 and a half years I have gained over 35 pounds (about 15-16kgs) and I need to change that. Especially because I do not feel good in my skin anymore. I have never been skinny, but I looked alright. Now, I feel ashamed to put on a bikini.
Second, I will save up money. I have to go visit my boyfriend from something. And I also want to travel around Europe on the weeks when I won't have college from September.
By the way, college. I used to be a Biology major for a half year and I left it. I left it, because it made me feel awful and simply I did not want to study in that field. I want to be and english major, so I reapplied in February and I will get the news if I was accepted or no in August. I will be so happy if they accept my application. I have given Biology a chance, like my father wanted - not really, he wanted me to be in medicine, but I was just not up for that (for several reasons) - but I got to go on a path that I chose for myself, because I want to be happy. I want to love my job, and I want to be a good influence for my kids in the future. Like a positive person, who won't pressure them to go on fields they are not interested in. There are only so many doctors the world needs, and I want to be the parent that tells her kids that they can be anything they like, because nobody HAS TO BE a doctor, lawyer, judge, architect etc.
Right now I work as a barista, making pretty flowers in the micro-foam. It pays alright, but if I was living in a rented apartment I would probably starve to death. So now that I have introduced myself, it is time to change clothes, and go for the run I have talked about above. See you in the next entry.
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